Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Lost Mojo...

I’ve changed my mind.

I’m tired of writing about Usher and I. Is that weird? How am I gonna be tired of us? lol I guess cuz I’ve realized that nothing new is gonna happen with us. We’re gonna fight, then make up until one day we either break up or get married. So when either of those outcomes happen, I’ll update you.
Plus I went by a blog today and realized how tiring it is to hear about the same two people all the doggone time and figured my readers are probably as tired of reading about usher and I as I am in writing it…and reading on other people’s blogs.

I don’t really have anything else to talk about… but that’s never stopped me before. I have lots of chaotic thoughts in this noggin of mine. I usually get them when I’m off work and away from a computer. lol By the time I get back to a computer, I have lost all desire to blog…and halfway forgot the subject I wanted to talk about. But, when I get a blog jones…I’ll be sure to share.
*shrug*

Anyways… I’m lazy today…. So I’ll just do a meme (or two). I’ll be back to do a real post when I find my mojo.

Random thangs....
1. Who is the last person you high-fived?
Some lady at church. Preachers always want you to interact with your neighbor.
Preacher: Hi-5 your neighbor and say “nay-bah”

Me and lady kinda glancing at each other hoping the other one didn’t see us looking so we don’t have to really do a hi-5. Dang…we caught eyes. Weirdly hi-5in..each other mumbling “Neh-buh”

Preacher: Gawd, is good!

Me and lady:*mumbling* Gawd, is good.


2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
*blink, blink* NEXT

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope. I need total silence…or a fan to drift off. I’m extra sensitive to noise. I don’t understand how I could be after living in a dorm. *shrug*

4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
uh…negative.

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Sure have. I know you can’t tell by reading this blog. lol

7. How fast can you type?
pretty fast… 70ish wpm.

8. Are you afraid of the dark?
After scary movies yeah. lol

9. Eye color?
brown

12. Do you knock on wood?
nope. Didn’t you read one of my first blog postings here???

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
nope

14. Do you think you're attractive?
for the most part yeah.

15. Can you hula hoop?
No. And I’m ashamed. Very ashamed.

16. Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yeah.

17. What do you want for Christmas?
A new car! Any takers???


18. Do you know the Muffin Man?
That lives on Drury Lane?

19. Do you talk in your sleep?
nope… too busy snoring.

20. Who wrote the book of love?
dunno. *shrug*

21. Have you ever flown a kite?
Nope

24. How many people are on your contact list of your cell?
I dunno… lemme check
.
.
.
*2 minutes later*
I’m tired… I only got through the C’s.

25. Have you ever asked for a pony?
no. does my little pony count?

26. Plans for tomorrow?
Work. Gym. Home. Nothing spectacular

29. When was the last time you told someone 'I love you'?
Today.

31. How are you feeling today?
I’m good

32. Are you black?
uh… *looking at skin* guess so! lol

33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
nope

34. What are you looking forward to?
a lot. let’s see.. a new car… a new place…a raise…seeing the results of hitting the gym…lol… lots.

35. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes. Unfortunately. Wish I remembered why...

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Definitely a Negative

38. Can you handle the truth?
sometimes

39. Do you like green eggs and ham?
nope

40. What 3 things you always bring w/ you to places?
driver’s license, keys, and celly

41. Any cool scars?
scars…yes…
“cool” scars… no

43. How many kids do you plan on having?
however many God blesses me with. (unless I get to 5…then I’d just get my tubes tied.)

44. What do you do when no one is watching?
Do my beyonce impressions in the mirror.

46. Do you talk to yourself?
yeah.

47. Is there something you want that you can't have?
yeah.

48.Two things about the opposite sex that you first notice.
walk, face.

50. Who did you last hug?
my momma

52. Where is your phone?
right here in front of me

53. What was the last thing you ate?
a home made salad. (mmmm)

54. Favorite Color?
don’t have just one. I have favorite colors for favorite things.

55. What is the last movie watched?
Idlewild

56. What song do you currently hear?
Donnell Jones - u know what's up

57. What do you want?
Everything


Yes or NO Questions…
Rules:
You can ONLY reply with a YES or NO
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING
(although things with asterisks I will elaborate on if you ask me to in comment section.)

Taken a picture completely naked? Yes
Danced in front of your mirror naked? Yes
Told a lie? Yes
Ever had a one night stand? No*
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
Been arrested? No
Made out with someone of the same sex? Yes*
Seen someone die? No
Kissed a picture? Yes
Slept in until 5pm? Yes
Had sex at work (on the clock)? Yes*
Fallen asleep at work/school? No
Held a snake? Yes
Ran a red light? Yes
Totaled a car in an accident? No*
Pole danced? No
Sang karaoke? Yes
Done something/someone you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose? No
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
Kissed in the rain? Yes
Sang in the shower? Yes
Gave your private parts a nickname? No
Ever gone to school/work without underwear? Yes*
Sat on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
Broken a bone? Yes
Mooned/flashed someone? No
Had sex with your socks on? Yes
Shaved your head? No
Slept naked? Yes
Blacked out from drinking? No
Played a prank on someone? Yes
Had a gym membership? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Yes
Cried over someone you were in love with? Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? No
Been in a band? Yes
Subscribed to Maxim? No
Taken more than 10 shots of alcohol? No
Shot a bow and arrow? No
Played strip poker? Yes
Tripped on mushrooms? No
Donated Blood? Yes
Eaten alligator meat? No
Have you been to more than 10 countries? No
Been caught having sex in your car? Yes*

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

It was the best of times...

Yay!
It’s Wednesday and I’m not broke! I survived the birthday weekend with gas money to spare. *whew* I enjoyed every minute of my weekend you guys. I think I enjoyed their birthday more than I did my own.

Both my mom and Usher are very high strung individuals…each requesting to have their every demand and whim catered to. Royalty in their own right…. or shall I say, in their own minds. *sheesh* Those two know they can play the boss.

They weren’t too too bad this year though. Moms wanted a suit from this boutique she frequents, so shopping for her wasn’t time consuming. It usually isn’t. She hates surprises. She’s the type that will take you to all her favorite shops and pick out what she wants you to buy her. *shrug*
It works for me. I just save (since she loves expensive stuff) and then when I get the money, I waltz in and out within minutes.

This year, we took her to Maggiano’s. It was definitely a treat since I hadn’t been since my birthday last year. To me, Maggiano’s is the kind of place you go with a nice crowd. So of course we invited all the family and her friends. My mother actually wanted Usher to come, but he had to work.
Um...Is it wrong for me to feel a little relieved that he wasn’t able to come? I mean, it wasn’t that I don’t like him around my family, it’s just that… I dunno…I’m afraid he’s gonna say something that’s gonna turn my parents completely off. Usher is known for his brutal honesty and he holds nothing back… so I guess the less he’s around them, the less he has a chance to ruin the pretty nice impression they have of him. Plus, every since bringing TG around and him doing what he did, I feel a little silly/stupid. I don’t wanna start bringing Usher around all the time, then we break up and have to feel that same way again. I think that’s the real reason. I just don’t wanna get too comfortable thinking he’s gonna be there…and then have to explain to everyone why we aren’t together. I HATE that.

Anyway, since I didn’t see him Saturday, I made up for it the next two days.The rest of the weekend was all Usher. Since his b-day fell on Monday, he started partying Saturday night and didn’t stop until yesterday morning.
Sunday I got to his place after service around 10am and of course he was still lounging around in the bed talking about how messed up he had got the night before. I’m looking around like… homeboy, did a tornado hit your house?
2-liter coke bottles, doritos bags, plastic cups, a pizza box, cigarillo wrappers, and a bottle of almost finished Hennessey peppered his carpet.
This child really did enjoy his doggone self last night.

So we…(read: I) start cleaning up his bedroom cuz I couldn’t even think with all that mess on the floor. By the time I was finished, he was up and showered and ready to get into more trouble. A few of his friends came through and I had to endure that awful Madden game he plays every doggone day. (Okay...so it’s not that bad, but I promise you, if we ever get to the point where we live together, I could definitely see myself getting mad one day and hiding that doggone game.) I cheer him on and watch him slaughter his friend then I told them all that they need to get out so the birthday boy and I can have a little "us" time.

Okay so i didn't say that... but I looked at Usher and he knew what time it was...so he said it for me. lol

We went to his parents’ house around 5. I’d been there twice before, but this time I was a little nervous. I’m sure it had EVERYTHING to do with the fact that he wanted me to sing for them today. Blech! I love to sing…but a sista gets so nervous singing around folks. Especially HIS folks….who will talk about you to your face if you hit a wrong note. *smh*
It worked out though. He must have hyped me up cuz as soon as we hit the door, his daddy hugs me and yells…"aight Sway, get ‘ta sangin. Lemme here whatchu got"

We all burst in to laughter but pops was serious as a heart attack. lol Seeing how I’m shy, I held Usher’s hand for the whole song and even closed my eyes so I didn’t see the 6 of them just staring at me. I ended the song and opened my eyes just in time to see Usher’s daddy dabbing a napkin at his right eye.

“Awwww…you made my daddy cry.” Usher teases me as he kiss my cheek as to tell me thanks and starts to brag to the fellas how his girl is "all the way live." lol *whew* That’s finally done. Now I’m ready to eat!

His momma was straight working that kitchen. Mmmmm … is that fried tilapia, cheese grits, eggs, potato salad, mac and cheese, and deviled eggs I see? Cl-lawd have mercy!
This some down home, country cooking hurrrr! I was so excited. I stuffed myself til I couldn’t stuff anymore…then ate some more! lol

We stayed around there after dinner for a few hours. The men folk went downstairs and talked that trash while betting on a few games of Tunk. His mother, sister and I sat in the kitchen talking about their crazy behinds, and eventually went down to join in the festivities. I think Usher ended up winning a whopping $8 dollars. lol

We headed back to his place and Lord knows I wanted to just stay right there with him. We both had put in our request for time off on Monday, so I was in no rush to go to bed.
Around 3:30 that morning, we were able to tear ourselves away from each other and I sleepily drove home…only to be back at his house around noon.

“Happy Birthday honey!” I screamed while jumping into his arms as he opened his door. After greeting me with his bear hug and kiss, I figured I’d go ahead and get started on his birthday cake.

He and his roommate (who happens to be his cousin…and who’s birthday also happens to be that that day) kinda lurked around the kitchen waiting for me to finish with the cake.

“I hope it tastes better than it looks” Usher chimes while watching me smooth on the icing.

Oh, I KNOW he didn't...

I glare at him.

I look at the cake...*chuckle* he’s right…this is the ugliest cake I’ve ever made. lol I don’t know what it is about cooking in someone else’s kitchen but I can never get stuff right if I’m not at home.

“It’ll taste fine Thankyouverymuch!”


I pick at it for a little while longer and finally give up on it’s aesthetic appearance. “Alright I’m done!” I sigh.

He looks at it and sighs, paces back and forth, rolls his neck and shoulders... like he’s about to do something amazing and says… “K, I’mma taste it”.

Boy stop! If you don’t eat this doggone cake and stop being so dramatic! lol

He takes one bite and his eyes roll back a little.

“Mmmmm… it’s so moooist!”

“I know. I told you I'd hook u up baby!” I smirk. *whew* I was 'shole glad it still tasted good.

The rest of his birthday was a big blur. We did so much, and I was tired when I got back home. All in all it was a good weekend. :)

And then........

the Bull$#!+ began.

Next blog: "It was the worst of times: Deja Vu"

Monday, August 14, 2006

Smile

God
Is
Good.

Period.

There’s no other way to put it. I’ve been struggling a lot this year with my spirituality as I try to sort through my changing views on life, my relationship with the Father, and my beliefs about how they coincide. But no matter what I feel, how confused I get, how much I think I don’t know… I keep coming back to these two truths. God is real, and God is Good.

I just needed to get that out. :)

I've been a lazy blogger lately. I dunno why.*sipping tea* I guess I just haven't felt like typing a whole lot...but I'll make it up today. Promise. lol

My weekend was nice. I honestly don’t remember much about Friday but I know it came and went so… *shrug*

Saturday was Usher’s mother’s birthday, so most of the day we were running around getting her birthday requests taken care of. It was kinda fun. She asked for us to wash and detail her SUV for her. So we did what any loving person would do for their parent...went on a quest to find that. lol
We're so lazy.

So we started our quest the right way...we went straight to the hood.

We pulled in the first "car wash" place we saw and sure enough...a crackhead told us he’d detail the entire thing, inside and out…for *drumroll please*
.
.
.
.
six bucks.

I was like dang holmes? That’s it? *eye brows raised*

He was like “yeah, I’ll wash yo car, shine your tires up, get the stains out the carpet, make it smell good, vacuum, put rain x on ya windows… I’ll do it all… I just need 6 bucks.”

Usher and I looking at each other… “Aight”.

So we waiting RIGHT by the car so no funny biznass can go on… and brutha man was working it OUT for his 6 bucks.
His other crackhead friends were coming up trying to talk to him and stuff… and it was funny watching him trying to shew them away from his “customers” since he was now a biznass man. lol

But I gotta say. Homeboy did a good job. Usher shot him a 20 and we went on our way. I hadn’t seen someone so happy in my life. I feel kinda bad for funding an addiction … but dang Usher momma’s whip look NIIIIICE!

We ended up going to Benihana that evening with his family. I really like them. All of 'em are crazy! Well except his mom, but she’s been around the nonsense for so long that she blends right on in. We’re all sitting around the table waiting for the show while Usher and his dad talk that trash, when this skinny black man comes over and introduces himself as our chef for the night. Everyone looked at each other and around the restaruant at everyone else's chef and got real quiet for about .03423 seconds before the laughter reigned and the jokes began to roll. We like… all these Japanese chefs here…and poor Bernard gets OUR table. They are gonna be messing with him ALL night...subjecting him to our crazy talk. Including him in the jokes...everythang. lol

It was cool though… he had some get back… and I actually think that he made our night even more entertaining.

Everything was good although I think their food is overpriced. There’s a place called Daruma’s in conyers where I can get the same thing/same show for about $30 cheaper. *shrug*

We didn't get back to Usher's place until like...11:30. By midnight I was fussing at Usher to go to bed because Sunday was the BIG day. He needed to get as much rest as he could cuz I wasn't hearing ANY excuses about how he couldn't go to church with me.

So, Usher FINALLY met my parents! *dun dun duuuuuuuuuuuun*

I had to pick him up since his car is still completely messed up from the accident last week, but when I saw him I had to pat myself on the back. I did GOOD ya'll! lol

He came to church looking as he says “young fresh ta def” . lol

I guess because I’ve never seen him in a suit, he really caught me off guard.
I was a proud chica. :)

We got to church early and plopped on the front row where my parents usually sit and I introduced my folks to him quickly and we sat down.
Of course as soon as we sat down, he leaned over and whispered… “all of ya’ll short”. lol

Gee…thanks babe! *eye roll*

Anywho…church was good. You know everybody was staring at us. Probably wondering who in the heck is this 6’1 man in the front row leaning wit it and rockin wit it? *smh*

Yes ya’ll… I made a big mistake. I purposely took him on the 2nd Sunday because that’s when the young folks choir sings…and they have a knack for getting a little “too crunk” for church if you know what I mean. He didn’t believe me when I told him a few weeks ago that they seriously play young joc at church so I invited him to see this craziness for himself.

So just like clock work…in the middle of service, the chirrun got stirred up and the musicians got to playing TI’s “What u know about that” and it just went from there… we had a whole lil concert… Shoulder lean… Lean wit it rock wit it… everythang. *smh* Lawd Lawd Lawd.

Of course the older folks…(and me too) were just sitting there with an appalled look on our face like… ARE.YOU.FOR.REAL?

Let’s just say, that this was Usher’s favorite part of the service… his crazy behind done got OUT his seat straight dancing with the choir… ON the front row….with his very conspicuous behind! lol

But it was all good. That’s Usher for you. *mumbling…I can’t take him nowhere!* lol

After Church we went to dinner with my parents, but not before stopping by his aunt’s house (since we were out that way) so that she could see him. I guess he doesn’t get over that way much because she nearly fainted she was so happy to see him. He introduced me and she just thought we were the cutest lil things on earth. She all inviting us in and asking us to sit down and I’m like… thanks...but uh, we gotta go…

Of course not before she snaps a pic or two though. lol



Poor camera didn't do a good job of relaying the sexy though. :(
Homeboy was wayyy flyer than this can show. lol

We left there and rushed to folks to find my parents, my uncle and his girlfriend already seated.

Usher decides to break the ice after we sit down by looking over at my mom and saying “Well, I guess you like me okay since you haven’t jumped over the table and lashed out at me.”

To which my mom replied with a straight face... “Naw I haven't... yet”.

Oooooooooh! It has begun. lol

It was all in good fun though. Usher said some things that I’m SURE my parents didn’t like, but he was charming and funny too.

All in all, I think that the day went pretty darn good.

*sigh of relief*

Now…next order of business…surviving the upcoming weekend. Both Usher and my mother are celebrating birthdays this weekend. *faints* Pray for me! We leo's are expensive.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Storm's here...

You ever ask a question you didn’t really want to know the answer to? Ever make a statement and immediately wish you could retract it? Well… that’s me right now… hoping that nothing more comes up. I am glad to report that no one died… but wow has this week been one big worry case after another.

It happened just like in my dream…back to back to back…but WHAT happened was different. Right after I finished my blog about hoping this isn’t the “calm before the storm”, it hit.

I got a call the next morning saying that my cousin was being rushed to the hospital because she was unconscious.

Unconscious? Huh.

I asked them what happened and no one could really say, everyone said that it looked like she had a seizure and blanked out. Once they got her to the hospital, the doctor said that she had a migraine induced stroke.

Stroke?

At 25?

Dang.
I love my cousin. She’s more like my little sister, so it hit me really hard for her to be going through this.

Thankfully, God saw fit to heal her…and she’s recovering fine at home. *whew*

The next day, my friend calls to tell me that his car was stolen. His laptop, work stuff, church stuff…everything was in there. So far, it still hasn’t been recovered.

The day after that, Usher hydroplanes and crashes his car during our hurricane-like rain.
He had NO seatbelt on...so he was ejected from his seat.
But to God be the glory... he's alive.

So we get him checked out and ER suggests that he takes Monday off. He tells his job, and they aren't happy about him not being there... *sigh* Yeah he told them what happened, but these butt holes don't seem to care. So he had to deal with that today. But at least he still has a job. *sigh*
One of my good friends just lost her job. So she’s calling me crying and panicking about how she’s gonna make it.

I’m trying to be there for everyone…but I’m tired. And sad. I think about how many of these people would come help me if the roles were reversed. I think about how everything is happening all around me…to people I love. I think of what if the stroke took my cousin out, what if my friend was kidnapped with the stolen car, what if the crash was Usher’s final day here..
I couldn’t stop crying.
I was sad that this week people I love almost died...
But soooo very grateful that they didn’t.
I’ve already lost so much this year, I don’t think I could handle any more grief.
So… *sigh*
Lord, please… let the rest of this year go smoothly.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Wed nes day

Awwwww…you guys DO love me. :)

Thanks to everyone for the happy birthday wishes.
I’m glad to report that my birthday was nice and I'm officially on a "good birthdays" streak. I started celebrating on Friday and didn’t finish until last night. I must say, maturity and experiences are definitely changing my definition of partying though. If I had this type of birthday 5 years ago, I would have thought it was the most boring uneventful birthday weekend ever. But I really enjoyed myself. I’ve settled down a whole lot…and I’m glad. All that wild stuff would have caught up to me by now if I was still out there like that.

Not much to report on the weekend. Usher and I had a really nice time doing nothing together. We talked a lot. Ate a lot, sang a lot, and bought a lot… It was great. Did I tell you all that I’m considering moving on his side of town soon? I’ve been wanting to move since last year, and I’m finally in a position to do it. So I’ve been looking around everywhere, but happened to find a nice place less than 5 minutes away from his place that was nice. It also happens to be 5 minutes away from my mother’s job, and 15 minutes away from mine. That’s perfect huh? Well… unless my mother comes over everyday, Usher and I break up, and my job moves downtown…which has been a topic of discussion. lol Decisions. Decisions. We’ll see.


I did manage to get my butt up at the crack of dawn to go to Free Spirit on Sunday. *yay* I didn’t realize how missed I was. Everyone hugged me and smiled at me and told me how much they missed me. It was heart warming. Of course Pastor called me up to sing. *smh* I was like… as soon as I step foot in a church, they’re gonna put me to doing something. lol

It was good to be back though. My babies ran to me when they saw me and was like… Miss Su-kel-a where you been? We’ve been looking for you! I hugged them so tight I forgot that they might need to breathe.
Of course they sat with me. Babygirl drew me a birthday card with me swinging on a swing. I thought it was cute. Lil TG just kinda looked at me and smiled. He missed me too. :) His daddy wished me a happy birthday and asked out to breakfast. Blah! I didn't wanna be in his company. Although I must say, it was too cute to see babygirl jumping up and down on my leg begging me to go.
I ended up going to my parents church. I figured after missing a few sundays in church, I'd double it up this week.

Life is going pretty well. :) Hope it not the calm before the storm...

Intentional

Look at me being all intentional and stuff! lol I WILLED myself to remember and write in this blog before the year was out.  So proud that t...