I Officially...

QUIT DIS B****!!! (C&D '06)

It's been 3 years.

I've laughed...cried.

Got mad...got glad.

Went from "he's so wonderful" to "he ain't sh**!"

3 years of my life is here...

and i think it's time to call it quits.

Blogging has been a great joy for me. In fact, I may start an entire new blog one day...who knows. All i know is right now... i know it's time to throw in the towel for Perfect Chaos.

I will be back to do a "over the years" post complete with pictures of some of the people I've talked about. I might even throw in a quiz for those who have been faithful readers...and give the winner a prize or something.

We'll see. *shrug*

Oh wait...before i go. I guess I should at least tie up a few of the loose ends from my last post.


THE CAR
Well... I didn't actually take it to the dealership that next day like i planned. I was like... man...screw this. I need a car. lol So I rode it til the very end.
Last friday morning... I was awaken to the sound of my car being taken away. They had called monday to ask me to get the car signed in my name OR ELSE. I didn't want to do it because I'd already been having problems with the car...and now the transmission was so bad that I literally COULDN'T REVERSE. *smh* Plus, the amount still owed on the car was ridiculously high and I could get a practically brand new car instead. So, I replied to them that while I'd continue paying the notes, I refuse to sign my name on any dotted line concerning this car. Friday... they came and got the car.

Darn it! Now how in the heck am I gonna get to work??

My moms gave me a ride...and i'm so happy that Usher has a car now because I called him to come pick me up from work.

"Can u take me to Rick Case baby? I wanna go look at that car we looked at a few weeks ago again."

"Aight" He smirked. He thought it was funny that I was carless and he's the one having to take me around now.

It's not gonna be for long buddy. Trust that.

We get to the dealership and talk to Jayson again. We were referred to him by Usher's best friend.
"Shawty, go to Jayson. He's a cool azz dude. He'll hook you up. Plus, if you buy something, I'll get $300 for referring you." He mentioned to us a few weeks back when I told him I was considering buying a car.

Jayson might have been cool...but he's still a car salesman trying to make that money. I had found the car he tried to sell me previously on the internet for $4000 cheaper. Usher called him out on it this time when we got there and it became a little heated. Jayson tried to explain what happened...and how the internet price is if you were buying the car cash. So we sitting there...negotiating...getting them to lower my payments IF i decided to by... and lowering the total cost of the car. Finally I'm more at ease with the price.

We spent 2.5 hours there...and I drove out in my new whip.
Thank you God!
When one door closes...another one opens. What a blessing.

THE TICKETS
Well for a while I thought that ole girl lost my tickets because they weren't in the system for a month. But I called 2 weeks ago and there they were. One for $185...the other for $140. That is some BS. So I'm fighting them. Court is monday. Wish me luck!

THE TOOTHACHE
I guess sometimes it's good to be a hustla. Usher is a man's man. You know... he's good at sports, driving fast cars, spades, domino's, madden, and betting. Nothing I'm really into.(except the sports thing)
Well he has plenty of guy friends whom he often hangs with. They get together and smoke...talk that cold cash...and of couse engage in some kind of "negro i'm better than you, let's bet on it to see" activity.
So I've been really broke lately. Between saving for a down payment on a new car, and maintaining that old one... I have been strapped. Usher of course had been let go...and found out that his job had denied his unemployment check request. So he's appealing that, but until the hearing, he's completely out of cash as well. Times are hard...and his toothache is getting worse. He'd been taking the pain meds he got earlier this year for his back to get him through those nights the pain was unbearable.
I guess he said enough was enough. He was gonna make some money. So he invited his "not so legal" friends over for a friendly game of poker.
By the end of the night... let's just say he had raked up enough money to break me off a bill, pay for his root canal, take me out on a much needed date, fill my tank up, and pay his rent.
I'mma need him to do this every weekend. lol What can I say, the boy's got some hustle. :)
So that monday, he got his tooth taken care of and all is well.

THE JOB SITUATION
Okay so Usher was fired. And they denied his request for unemployment. He appealed it, and now they have a conference call with the D.O.L. to get to the bottom of this. Usher is hopeful that he'll win because true enough, the reason they gave for letting him go really ISN'T a good reason. They should have fired him for the fight... then they may have had a case. So we think he'll win. If he does, all the money that they've been witholding over the weeks will be paid in one lump sum. That would be right on time for the holidays. To make ends meet this last month, he's been doing odd jobs with his uncle. He's been making about $40 a day...everyday...which isn't bad until he gets callbacks from these other job prospects. I really admire this about Usher. He's out of work, but he's still making ends meet without asking me for money. He knows how to get his. I can appreciate that about him.
So we're keeping our fingers crossed on this new job he's looking into.


THE RELATIONSHIP

Monday Nov 6, 2006
10:04pm

Me: *calling Usher* Heeeeey baby.
Him: Wuzzup Honey.
Me: Nothing much. Getting ready to go to bed. *yawn* I'm tired.
Him: Already? Awwww. Okay.
Me: Alright. *waiting for him to start our nightly ritual. We've never went a night without saying it*
Him: *knowing I'm waiting for him* Alright Honey, You have a Good Night.
Me: You too.
Him: Don't let the bed bugs bite.
Me: *smiling* You too. *i dunno why i smile everytime he says this*
Him: Muuuuuuuaaaah!
Me: Muuuuuaaaah! *ahhh...the completion of our ritual*

Him: I love you honey.
Me: *2 second stall with mouth agape*

Did he just say he loved me?

Me: I love you too baby.

We hung up and I sat there with a crooked smile and misty eyes.
That was the first time we ever told each other we loved one another.

Maybe we will be alright. Maybe we will.