Okay...Okay!!! 5 months ain't bad!
Ya'll time is definitely different at 45 than it was at 25. It is FLYING BY and I'm not ready. I wish I had more time to stop and smell the roses. It feels like my entire adult life has been me grinding toward my next goal. Laser focused on something...a to do list, a next step, a made-up marker... something! And I've been pretty successful in about 90% of the goals I hoped to accomplish. But it really has always been something.
I started looking up and realizing that I've got to slow down on the check-offs and just enjoy life before it's too late. Goals are great! But so is rest, relaxation, fun, silence, reflection, relationships, nature.
I've gotta slow down.
But life keeps speeding. Just like a going down a hill... the momentum just keeps picking up unless you actively brake.
I've gotta pump the breaks.
I'm at a scary place health wise. I am prone to overthinking and worrying...even though I know that I should let it go and give it to God. That stress isn't good for me. It affects my eating and sleeping habits. I've gotta do better.
I'm not quite ready to discuss the other stuff. I'm hoping it's nothing to discuss. But we'll see what God says. He's faithful and never leaves.
Even when I mess up. Even when I forget to give it to him and worry. Even when I "Sway" things up.
That's the Amazing Grace He extends to all of us.
With that... I'm gonna get back to my to do list! lol
Just needed to stop... and check in for a sec.
